200m - maths

woke up early today again. lol, maths is super rushhh! didn't manage to finish 53 questions in 1 day. =( too ambitious i guess xD haha then went to school where everyone studied lots of last minute stuff! nice.

ok backtrack a bit. let's talk about my insightful mrt trip.
usually when i'm alone on the mrt, i either listen to mp3, read a book, or just stare blankly at the entrance. and today, since i didn't finish mugging maths (haven't started on chap. 5b!!), i had to read up on the notes on the mrt.

anyway, somehow during the trip, i got struck by a thought. i was reading my notes when i looked up and turned to my left. and i was momentarily puzzled as to why the surroundings look so unfamiliar. after all, having traveled the same way for 5 years, i should be able to know my surroundings well enough? (plus i'm a scout! lol xD)

and i realised that most of the time, i'm either too caught up with what i'm doing, or simply just too used and conditioned to facing my body towards one side of the mrt (where the entrance usually opens) that i forgot all about the other side.

isn't it the same in life?

part one
many of us are so caught up with the insignificant matters in life, so engrossed with our trivial pursuits, and so lost in our self-constructed reality, that we lose sight of what's truly important as well as those around us.

when was the last time you said 'i love you' to your parents or gave them a hug? 1 week ago? 1 month ago? 1 year ago? when was the last time you let your friends know they are being appreciated? when was the last time you did something nice for someone?

we believe and assume that the important people around us know we cherish them. we believe and assume that even if we do not say it, people will know our feelings. we believe and assume that things will always go our way even if we do nothing about it.

but 'assume' makes an ass out of u and me. assumptions only exist in the mind of the passive. actions are what make these assumptions come true. only when we start acting out something, and making things happen will others understand the message we are sending out.

part two
we are too comfortable with the security that familiarity provides, too afraid of what might happen when these anchors get removed, and too lazy to move out of this 'comfort zone' (yes the overused and uber-cliche phrase x_X haha). and it is only when we dare to venture out will we get to taste new experiences, scent greater opportunities and sight higher peaks.

sometimes. we should look up, look out and look around. what we may discover behind our backs could potentially change things... and often for the better. ;)

lol nice i got carried away? xD ok maths today was interesting. i think the feeling of getting a question wrong because of carelessness is worse than getting it wrong because of inadequacy. AHHH! lol it's like immediately after the test when people are comparing answers when you start feeling this sense of erm... ok let me call it 'humourous frustration'. it's the slight feeling of frustration that is tinged with amusement at your own silliness xD.

ok. maths = a/b i hope! haha. and tomorrow's history. i would say it's the longest run of this relay. it's practically 2 subjects packaged into 1! nice scams. ><

lol and while eating at macs, marcus self-jacked again. he always get into this kind of awkward situations. xD and the exhaustion is creeping in. time for a power nap =)