sometimes

i frankly believe there are at least 10 facades anyone is wearing at any one time. every emotion is embedded deeply into one mask. and the number of masks we choose to wear defines the state of one's vulnerability. we are conditioned to hide behind a multitude of facades when we wish to escape from the painful reality. nobody said life is a fairytale. and even if it were, fairytales have their fair share of trials and tribulationstoo, before the story finally culminates in a happy-ever-after ending. an ending many frantically seeks, but few ever come close to it.

back to why i think there are at least 10 facades in anyone's life. each emotion gives rise to a mask. sadness. depression. joy. excitement. exhausted. crazy. fun. angry. disappointed. neutral. different situations dictate for a different emotional veil. i think we can honestly say we know a person only after discovering at least half of these masks.

sometimes i wonder why i try so hard.
sometimes i ponder over my decisions.
sometimes i feel so wronged.
sometimes i wish my fairytale would arrive earlier.
sometimes i think i'm just deceiving myself.
sometimes i want time to go back.
sometimes.

a friend once told me that everyone needs time of their own to think, to observe and to review. i like to pen my thoughts down. it helps me to face up to certain problems that arise sometimes, instead of leaving them hanging and unanswered. that's simply escaping from the problem. and it's so easy to escape from reality, to enter the dream domain of one's mind where everything is perfect.

it's so tempting to make the easy decisions.
it's so hard to make the right decisions.

i'm tired.
of life's many twists and turns.
of life's meandering and confusing ways.
of life's unpredictability.