faith

I need to comprehend the significance behind these symbols, rituals and habits are again, why the words that used to weigh heavy seem so feather-like now, and how understanding devolves through time.

Science and technology dominates the globalized, modernized world today. This hegemony continue to homogenize cultures across the world and marginalize the ones considered to be outdated while preserving the dominant ones. In the same way, I feel as though my faith is being eroded by the ever-increasing popular culture of commercialization, commoditization and corporatization. Everything in today's world is so fast-paced as we adapt and condition ourselves to become more efficient so as to remain competitive. But sometimes, do we pause to consider that this pace is too fast, that it is moving our centres of gravity back and forth so quickly tthat we lose our grip and our anchor?

They say globalization shrinks time and space - I say it shrinks us. We reduce our identities and conform to inherent herd instincts as the latest trends continue to enslave us. All these observations are often applied to describe macro situations in the global world, but its effects are so pervasive that many of us remain oblivious to its subtle reach into our individual lives.

What is faith and religion in today's world? How can I be sure...? Is there any way to prove it?

Is my weak religious foundations creating these doubts? Or is technology merely subsuming it under its dominant character? Maybe it's a combination of both push and pull factors? I don't know.

I have always thought that doubt is not the opposite of faith, but rather an important element of faith. Yet the questions that I have asked for a long time still remain unanswered, and they continue to create more questions. Some says faith is believing the unbelievable, but I'm still learning how. How do I take the great leap of faith when I don't have the energy to jump?

sigh. This is mind-boggling and irritating.

I'm better off mugging econs or playing some games.