Driving me crazy

Recently, I have been thinking a lot about you. Ok, it's more than a lot. It's A LOT. It's been bothering me so much I just needed somewhere to write it all down. So here's my confession.

You know, I just can't stop thinking about us. You make me lose my mind over you. I am losing sleep every night just thinking how I can solve this problem between you and I. Every single night. And the worst thing is that you probably don't know.

Sigh. I talk to my friends about you, but everyone tells me different things. So many diverging opinions, so many questions. I truly am at a loss of what to do. Can you tell me? No, probably not. Maybe I should have spent more time trying to know you, trying to understand you, but no, I always thought things will go my way, so I didn't bother. Now, it's too late for regrets.

Aren't you tired? Aren't you tired of running through my mind every single moment? If you aren't, I am. I wish I can forget about you, but I can't. It's too hard. Our futures are interlinked, you and I. Even if I want to, you probably wouldn't let me. Why is it so hard, I wonder at times. Perhaps you needed me to lower my expectations, but from the place I come from, these expectations are already low enough. Sorry. I shouldn't judge you like that. It's probably unfair.

You and I, we share this love-hate relationship. No, it's not that I don't love you. It's just that right now, I would really love to hate you and hate to love you.

Sigh. Can we ever resolve the issues between you and I? Can we? I need some advice. Maybe I am not good enough for you.

Uni apps ah, uni apps. You are driving me crazy.