Limbo

And with the conclusion of the As, it feels like I am cast into some sort of limbo. On one hand, the hardwork and sacrifice over the past few months do warrant some form of wanton slacking in the form of outings, games, and basically spend my time away having fun. On the other hand, the devil's advocate champions the pressing need to start on these irritating uni essays and get some work done. Sigh, personally, I find it hard to balance my time between work and play, because I'm sort of the extreme kind - in the sense that when I do play something, I will go all out and play; and when I work, I will also work myself dead to achieve the goals.

I guess the point is that we are now entering a phase where 'freedom' and 'fun' are better companions than 'work' and 'study'. At the same time, it is also the point where we have to take on greater responsibility for ourselves. Gone are the days where parents and teachers coodle us with everything we need. Instead, we now have to do our own research (uni apps) and sign up for our own examinations (LNAT, BMAT, SAT and all the other -ATs) these days. Perhaps it is a sign that we are truly and gradually becoming adults. Or perhaps it could be we are slowly becoming independent.

Too much fun and too much activities... it forms a screeching and monotonous background noise that blocks out my mind. It is filling in the space where ideas and inspiration used to be situated at with all these fluffy matter of entertainment in various media. It seems kinda bad, but it isn't all that bad.

I immerse myself so deeply in games and outings that there is little energy left to ponder those awkward questions - questions on love, questions on friendships and questions on religion. Questions on life, basically. And as much as I wish I can simply throw out all the questions and act on instinct, I don't think I can. It's a character/personality (can anyone explain to me the distinction between the two terms?) thing. Think, consider, re-think. Find the best solution/answer.

Hm. I need inspiration.