A Murder of Thoughts

I have this feeling that I'm stuck in a limbo. Life has become too routine and dull - wake up, cycle, work, home, slack & sleep. It's like there's nothing to look forward to! True, there are the occasional meetings with friends that are held on weekends, but I much prefer them to be in sizable chunks rather than the assortment of various masses that they often are. Large groups are for entertainment; small groups are for intimacy. The next time I say "Long time no see/talk!" to you even though we have just met a few days back, perhaps you'll get what I mean.

Group meetings are like 'assurance' encounters, gatherings where you convey to certain friends the message that you hope the special friendships you share will last beyond the month, beyond the year. On the other hand, individual meetings are like 'intrigue' encounters, meetings where you really get to talk to the person - thus, getting to know the friend better, and allowing him or her the opportunity to know you beyond the surface too - and find yourself becoming interested to learn more.

I digressed. Anyway, I need a GOAL, a pursuit where I can leash my imagination on and unleash my energies for. It has to be something I really want to do, not something I am interested in doing. It has to be a 'hard' goal, not a 'soft' goal like learning to cook or waveboard.

Designing the website for AYC is interesting, but it's not enough. The only interesting part is when the designing part - the subsequent coding part is a torture. In fact, I find that designing is probably one of the best applications of problem-solving. On one hand, there are certain demands you have to deal with (like the site content), certain restrictions you have to work under (like your theme has to be aligned to the corporate colours), and certain ideals you have to adjust towards (like how the site should look like i.e. cartoonish, professional). On the other, you have to consider your personal arsenal of skills in areas such as graphic design, coding and animation. After this, you have to synthesize both of the individual parts to produce something that both your client and you like. Problem Provided + Skills = Answer!

And I digressed, again. Then again, there is no designed agenda for this post, just a collection of random thoughts and ideas. I guess I can start working on stuff like PSC essay for now while I think of a potential project to take up. Actually, I was thinking of writing a book, but somehow I feel that my thoughts get stifled, and my creativity oppressed, while I'm in the office. Or maybe I should just try my hand in tutoring since I have always been interested in teaching.

Ah well, the vagaries of the mind.

A murder of crows.