a dream come true

To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe. - Anatole France

have you ever had a gamble with life and destiny with heavy stakes that will inevitably affect your future?

haha, well, if you had, you must have understood how i felt during the campaigning process for council. it was a hard decision for me to give up the opportunity to be in odac core - after all, i have always loved the outdoors and nature, having experienced the beauty of nature many times before, and allowed the comforting presence of mother nature smother me, putting me into a trance of peace and tranquility.

but i have always experienced this.. want, or rather, need, to challenge myself even further. joining odac core would definitely be a great experience and i'd definitely make great friends as we weather the storms of nature and hardships together. yet, the idea somehow doesn't seem to be satisfying and fulfilling enough.

maybe i'm a bit weird.. but i've always liked working under pressure. or rather, there have been many incidents in the past where i excelled under heavy stress. this remind me of an old post, and the link to a site on which the author suggests that the normal human inability to exert oneself to one's physiological maximum is the result of "acquired inhibitions that in turn are subject to disinhibition by pure Pavlovian procedures, by anesthetization of inhibitory mechanisms, or by pharmacologically induced symptoms serving as stimuli for disinhibition."

lol, there are some alien terms there.. but i think you can get the general meaning of it. maybe stress can open up a corridor leading me to the excess reserves which i've subconsciously stored and placed inhibitions on. oh well.. i dunno. just some lame hypothesis. back to the topic..

so.. i was sooooooo relieved when my gamble paid off. haha, now that i'm an elect (only officially known as councilor after the investiture xD), it seems so surreal somehow. i'm still trying to get used to the fact that my dream has actually come true.. still trying to condition my brain to accept it. lol, maybe i'll finally arrive at acceptance once i've settled in a department and been through the council camp! =D

CAMP! haha, simply can't wait for it. have always loved camps. so much fun and adventure, shock and surprises..

it's late... mmm, gotta sleep soon. lol, just played 3 dota games. crap. i'm not gonna play until i've completed all my work tmr! x.X haha but not bad la, it's a good feeling to be one of the most influential players in game =P ego-booster xD

to end off.. to those who have faced trials and tribulations only to find their dreams a hopeless cause, remember that if we had no winter, spring would not be so pleasant.. and to fly, we need resistance! cheer up!

p.s. saw funx's blog and decided to do the same test. haha, same results xD