class adventure camp part 2

lol, i'm in the library now. finally got some time for myself! hahaha earlier on i asked mr lim for permission to sleep in the class 'cause i was really too tired. yup and he really allowed me to rest! super nice.

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*no comments to the above post* er, i think you can tell whether it's the truth or not ya? xD

kk back to my post. 2nd highlight of class adventure camp = night walk!

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i realised library is not *conducive (thx nigel! xD) for posting. dunno why. just found it so. xD haha so i'd continue this post later on. ciao~
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night walk. solo or pair? for me, i chose solo. haha, somehow i find that there's an interesting relationship between challenges and i. if challenges were metal, i must be a lodestone - a magnet seeking out challenges.

prior to the walk, they arranged all the soloist to be at the back, allowing the pairs to go first. and in that quiet, soothing and dark atmosphere, royce and i had a chat about several interesting stuff - stuff like relationships, religion, friends, life, etc... very interesting indeed. then woonie joined us and told us some stuff about himself too. it was quite cool and really allowed me to know woonie better. there are many things which one will never discover or even expect, until one has actually spoken to the person. and i realised that because many people can't be bothered to get to know and understand the person first, they tend to assume, and this is how misunderstandings arise.

indeed, i find that while we may be classmates, there are many times when we find ourselves too caught up in our own lives to actually have a conversation with one another. and by conversation, i do not mean the small talk we make with one another everyday. conversation, to me, is talking between two parties that allows each other to understand one another better. in our hectic lives, we often make superficial talk that has no better use than clearing our throats.. or entertaining ourselves i guess. as such, it's only during times like this, when the atmosphere is right and the people are willing to talk, when you get to find out more about one another.

went on to the walk. there are some spots that are really pitch black.. so gotta wait for a while to get my eyes adjusted. gaining better night vision, the walk was relatively mild for me, having been thru so many night walks before.

after the walk, the class sat in a circle and we were asked to reflect abt the camp. before me, everyone sort of talked said stuff like how the camp managed to bring us closer together and stuff. no doubt, i definitely agree with these sentiments. however, i can still feel the invisible rifts that are tearing the class fabric apart, and which the camp was unable to bridge.


and so i spoke my mind. i talked about how disappointed i was. i've always been enthusiastic in causes i believed in. class and og were no different. that's why when my og 'died' i was super sad. like really sad. 'cos i always thought og was supposed to be real close and fun. oh well.

i'd say that my passion for anything always begin with a strong and unwavering flame. this flame can either be fueled into a raging bonfire or become snuffed out by a lack of oxygen, leaving behind wisps of smoke. and it takes a lot to get this fire rekindled again.


back to class. after expressing my truthful disappointments, everyone started expressing their honest opinions of the class. yea, i think the emo discussion made us realise where we had gone wrong as a class and what we should do to improve the situation. however, there were some views raised during the discussion which i felt quite strongly against.

someone mentioned that it was eventually all down to a simple entity - 'fate'.
some classes are just fated to bond, whereas others are not. THAT is something i definitely cannot agree with. while i do believe in the existence of fate, it definitely doesn't apply here. ultimately, i feel that whether a class will bond or not boils down to how much effort each and every individual is willing to put in. while fate may play a limited role in the composition of the class, it cannot determine whether we can bond or not.

someone else mentioned abt not placing class as priority and if one does not feel like going for class outing, one should just not go for it.
of course, there are many other things in life that are prioritised ahead of class. but i think it follows the same argument as above - everything is really about effort. how much you are willing to give will determine how much you will receive. at least that's my philosophy xD

k that's more or less the end of highlight 2! oh man, i'm down with fever, sore throat, cough. hope i can make it to school tmr =X don't wanna miss investiture rehearsals and dance practices.. lots of stuff to do before invest itself, hope everything goes according to plan! =)

stacy's mum [fountains of wayne]
Stacy's mom has got it goin' on
She's all I want and I've waited for so long
Stacy, can't you see you're just not the girl for me
I know it might be wrong but I'm in love with Stacy's mom