funny tests

lol, was bored after exercising at the park today. exercising simply invigorates me.. always feel more mentally active, albeit physically more tired. anyway, suddenly had an inkling to do some personality tests.. haha, in the end did a colour test and an iq test. both tests are from http://web.tickle.com/.

WHAT'S YOUR TRUE COLOR?
Nicholas, your true color is Red!

Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.

IQ TEST!
Nicholas, your IQ score is 133!

Your overall intelligence quotient is the result of a scientifically-tested formula based on how many questions you answered correctly. But it's only part of what we learned about you from your answers on the test. We also determined the way you process information.

The way you think about things makes you a Creative Theorist. This means you are a highly intelligent, complex person. You are able to process information of nearly every kind with ease, using both creativity and analysis to make sense of the world. Compared to others you also have a very rich imagination.

How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Creative Theorist? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Creative Theorist. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.

EQ TEST!
Nicholas, your Emotional IQ is 126!

This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Tickle's Emotional IQ test. But your Emotional IQ score is much more than just a number: it's an indicator of success.

Research has shown that people with high emotional intelligence scores — not necessarily those with the highest IQ scores — tend to be the most valued and productive employees and have the longest and happiest romantic relationships.

So, where are you most emotionally smart? Your test results show that your strongest suit is empathy — your ability to see things from someone else's point of view.

haha.. quite interesting.

a nice day

woke up. went to school. and embarrassed myself.

ahhhhh! i can't believe i actually did that for the 15s video! lol, maybe i'm developing a thicker skin now that i'm in rj. nvm, it was pretty fun mentally preparing myself and acting out that scene too. mmm, you guys will get to see it on monday! and plz try and vote for SHIHUA. ANNA. NICHOLAS. DEXTER -> THE SANDSATIONALS! ahaha.

then we were the first group to take the footage. lots of time after that. went back to the area outside council room. found the SAY group (haha, gonna thank me for the free advertisement? aha, j/k) got to know sabrina and yingling (eh, u prefer to be called that or giraffe?). haha, aileen is my ex-classmate (who hasn't gone for class outings for a long, long time =p).



then it became super funnnn! haha, they're really a bunch of hyper peeps, so we spent a long time singing lots of songs... chinese, malay english, anything, and simply having loads of fun! haha, singing songs with friends and getting high really rocks. YOU'RE ADVISED TO DO THAT TOO! =) haha, a bit of camwhoring with SAND too! and i had to take another embarrassing photo. kk, make that very embarrassing since i had to pose too xX

nothing eventful after that. decided to go changi airport to get my physics back on form (lol, sleeping thru too many lectures le.. gg ><). bought that 8pc chicken tender at BK and realised... I GOT SCAMMED AGAIN! haha, it's sort of lame. $4.70 for 8 tiny thingies. oh well, at least it tasted sort of nice =)

studied for a few hours.. with short naps in between. and noted an incident. a mother was with her two children, both of whom are very young, perhaps 4-6 yrs old. they were eating when the li'l girl spilled her drink onto the mother. usually, one might expect the mum to react angrily and berate the poor girl. however, this mother was different. she calmly took paper to clean herself up and told her child to remember not to do it again.

dun you find that it's easier to find fault with others first when it comes to a problem, instead of thinking up solutions to solve it? parents are unconsciously translating negative values through their actions to their child when they react in a poor manner to situations. but i guess a lot of patience has to go into bringing up a child too, so sometimes we can't really blame our parents for becoming angry at our faults. after all, teenagers are difficult, right?

back at home and typing this now.. i suddenly got reminded that it's 3 days more to go! hmmm, what a huge gamble.. giving up odac core to try out for council. hope everyone i knows get into council.. everyone's so fun, cool, responsible and funky! haha, nvm.. let's try to enjoy the remaining days of campaigning, have funnn and not worry abt the results till tuesday! it's the memories that count, right? =)

anyway, before i finish this post.. below's something cool from blogthings.com! aha

What Color Heart Do You Have?
Your Heart Is Green

Love completes you, but that doesn't mean you seek it out.
When love comes your way, you integrate it peacefully into the rest of you life.

Your flirting style: Laid back
Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking
Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm
What you bring to relationships: Balance

What Color Heart Do You Have?

serenity

"ebbing slowly away..."

hm.. today. started off pretty crazy. chatted with a few ppl at bb04 in the morning and we had a nice time sharing lame jokes xD lol, then went to class. CLASS WAS SUPER SLACK! 2 periods of gp without teacher.. so we ended up having to do aq question. then after that it was 2 periods of physics at the com lab. yup.. we certainly did pay attention... >< following that, it's another period of com lab doing pw. class is slowly getting more interesting i guess. lol, nigel shorty and yijing (he laughs at everything) are real fun, with the occasional zjian/royce combo adding on to the spice.

then after sch.. was supposed to meet up with the rest of sand, but everyone had something on in the end.. so postponed. met hc so we lamed around in the end and had a 'man-to-man''s talk. LOL. quite funny >< in the end, we went back to lodge and there, i learnt the art of CONTRACT BRIDGE!

wheee.. not bad. quite a fascinating game. another strategy game like dota. yupp, i made up my mind to become imba in it too. =D give me 1 month and i'll be really gd at it (i think) =p

went back home. at night, chatted with jean and.. kq! lol, it's been a while since we last chatted.. so we were discussing abt this funky idea of watching the sunrise! haha, pretty interesting.. hope there'd be enough 6k peeps interested in it. hm.. even if not, i think getting a small group will also be enough.. 430am in the morninng. hm.. can't wait mannnn!

hmmm.. 4 DAYS MORE TO GO! haha, results for campaign will be out by then. there's nothing much i can do now i guess.. most people have more or less created their list of 15 ppl to vote for alrdy. haha.. oh well.. excitement tinged with elements of fear ><

"the dice is rolling."

abstract

"it has happened before. and now it has happened again."

life is history awaiting to repeat itself. haven't you witnessed yourself making the same mistakes over and over again, no matter how much you tell yourself not to? sometimes, some things are simply inevitable. no matter how much you try to avoiding it, it always seems to happen to you over and over again.

life is a journey of lessons. every moment in life, there is a possibility that you'll experience something new, or see something mundane in a new light. and you will learn. sometimes, you feel that you have already learnt about it, only to find out that what you know is just the tip of an iceberg. mistakes, pains, regret are all inherent in life - it is impossible to complete this journey without getting hurt in the process.

life is a sentient being. it interacts with one in unsuspecting and subtle means. a simple breeze that ruffles your hair while your heart is in turmoil can be a small but meaningful measure that encourages you. when you're feeling down and out, lying by the beach with a million thoughts racing through your mind, a beautiful sunset can appear to show you how there's so much more to life that can be enjoyed. a confused soul lying with his back on the roof staring at the nightsky can bask in the soothing light of the bright moon, and let the comforting moon rays calm the troubled waters of the heart. observe life and let her help you traverse this long, long journey.

it has been an amazing week. there are days which made me feel like life's never been better, and there are also days which i feel are disparaging and dissatisfying. i dunno. i guess i was confused.. but thankfully, the confusion's beginning to clear.. hope the aftermath will last equally short.

council voting and results are coming up soon. lol, hope i can make it through ><

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

aiyo

zZz.. chae! must be too little sleep man. i wake up after sleeping for 5 hours and looked at my post again.. and it really looked un-nick.. eh, un-nick isn't u-nick (unique).. k nvm. just being lame ><

haha, and it's nice to slack around playing games, listening to music and chatting with frens again. mmm a break in campaigning's pretty cool. and now.. i'm in love with

童话
忘了有多久
再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久
我开始慌了
是不是我又做错什么
你哭着对我说
童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里
我要变成童话里
我会变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手
变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

一起写我们的结局

this song! haha dun u think the lyrics are sooooo beautiful?

mmm.. anyway, i realised i have the woman's chemical analysis on the site but not the man's version. soooo here's it!

MAN - A CHEMICAL ANALYSIS

Element - Man
Symbol - Ah (short for a**h***, a common French root used to identify the element)
Discover - Eve
Atomic Mass - Accepted at 7 inches, wavy brown hair, 6' 0" in length, though some isotopes can be as short as 4 inches yet weigh 200+ Kg
Occurrences - Found following dual element Wo, often in high concentration near a perfect Wo specimen. (Experimental evidence: any beach on any coast)

Physical properties
Obnoxious when mixed with C*H*-OH (any alcohol)
Tends to fall into very low energy state dirrectly after reaction with Wo (Snore ... zzzzz)
Gains considerable mass as specimen ages, loses reactive nature.
Often damaged as a direct result of unlucky reaction with poluted form of the Wo common ore.

Chemical properties
All forms desire reaction with Wo, even when no further reaction is possible.

Uses
Heavy boxes, top shelves, long walks late at night, free dinners for Wo...

Tests
Pure specimen will rarely reveal purity, while reacted specimens broadcast information on many wavelengths.

Caution
Tends to react extremely violently when other Man interferes with reaction to a particular Wo specimen. Otherwise very malleable under correct conditions.

lol. enjoy!

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朋友
这些年一个人
风也过雨也走
有过泪有过错
还记得坚持甚麽

真爱过才会懂
会寂寞会回首
终有梦终有你在心中

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒
朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛
还要走还有我

last night was emotional. it was so... sudden and unexpected. reached home, did some campaign stuff, searched for songs and listened to them. and it was while i was singing along with the song that i started tearing. haha... strange eh? it's been ages since tears have been laid and it was not as if any major event had impacted my life or anything.

perhaps it was marcus telling me to organize a get-together for the scouties again.. or maybe the random sessions with batchmates where we crap around and share secrets.. i dunno, the lyrics are just so... touching? i can still remember fs, nathan, kok and i singing it along with the hc scouts in thailand in sec3.. haha, oh well..

maybe that's why i felt so drained and tired today. wasn't my usual self.. and feeling so lethargic. at least the campaign's speech is over.. guess we can take it easier now and enjoy the rest of the campaign period. after all, what's the use of campaigning if you're only concerned about the end results? fun is important tooooooo!

sigh, i dunno. some things are simply meant to be confusing. it's frustrating. and it's irritating. i hope it either fades away soon.. or.. or.. takes on a different form? i dunno..

haha... i just realised this is my first 'sad' post.. guess there's a first for everything. kkz, enough laming around. sleep!

CAMPAIGN!

haha, campaigning's sooooooo tiring! lol, but definitely fun and enjoyable =) the trend of camwhoring in my group is slowly but surely warming up.. haha, and we're getting to know one another better. too tired to type any more.. so..

VOTE FOR US! VOTE FOR SAND!

BB1
Shi Hua.
Anna.
Nicholas.
Dexter.

the SANDsationals!

lol. just one of our many slogans =)

p.s. we took lots of photos today.. but they aren't with me. will post them tmr!

gp! and lots of fun

haha, today's been funnnnnn! lol, gp was hilarious with siti and zijian revealing their 'sick' side xD pe rox! since our pe slot sort of got shelved off or something, we ended up playing handball as a class.. and lijian was imba with his height advantage! haha, top scorer of the game too! then stayed back with dex and jean to laze around and to attempt some of the maths tutorial before meeting with xj and brian to have dinner. got to know shihao who somehow ended up with us too!

lol.. and at night, mel had formed her team with others, so she gave me the email add of anna. talking to girl whom u haven't met before online is sort of awkward at first.. yea, then we talked a bit and exchanged some info.. and tata! the 'SAND' campaign group has been formed! haha, sand's just the initials of our names.. not the real name >< yup, will get to know them better tmr.. and i can't wait for the campaign details to be released! haha, the campaign's gonna be lotssss of funnnnnnnnnn!

kk, gotta rush lots of work today! can't post much... but before i go, here's a tidbit on 'woman - a chemical analysis'.. the reading we were given during gp!

WOMAN - A CHEMICAL ANALYSIS

Element - Woman
Symbol - Wo
Discover - Adam
Atomic Mass - Accepted at 53.6kg, but known to vary from 40-200kg
Occurrences - Copious quantities throughout the world, but found to be concentrated in urban areas.

Physical Properties
1. Surface usually covered in painted film.
2. Boils at nothing; freezes without known reason.
3. Melts if given special treatment.
4. Bitter if incorrectly used.
5. Found in various states from virgin metal to common ore.
6. Yields if pressure applied in correct places.

Chemical Properties
1. Has great affinity for gold, silver and a range of precious stones.
2. Absorbs great quantities of expensive substances.
3. May explode spontaneously without prior warning and for no known reason.
4. Insoluble in liquids, but activity increases greatly by saturation in alcohol.
5. Most powerful money reducing agent known to man.

Common Uses
1. Highly ornamental, especially in sports cars.
2. Can be a great aid to relaxation.
3. Very effective cleaning agent.

Tests
1. Pure specimen turns rosy pink when discovered in the natural state.
2. Turns green when placed beside a better specimen.

Hazards
1. Highly dangerous except in experienced hands.
2. Illegal to possess more than one, although several can be maintained at different locations as long as specimens do not come into direct contact with each other.
3. Should you experience itching, burning or rash, discontinue use immediately and seek medical treatment.

enjoy!

p.s. oh yea.. received a belated gift from ame elita and mel! thanks! aha

YAY! ... and stuff

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! hahaha, the difference in moods i was feeling after meeting up my og mates was like 'tian yuan zhi bie' aka worlds part. class and lessons are fast becoming lethargic.. lol, but nvm, i'm glad that the few of us in l'egolas are still so bonded =) haha, then it became even BETTER when dex, jean and i went to check out the council results - dex and i BOTH GOT THRU THE INTERVIEWS! w00t! aha, could virtually feel my spirits lifted immediately after that. it was one of those underlying stuff that's been assaulting my thoughts recently, so it's a great relief and joy to finally find out that i'm in =)

after that, we went back lodge and played card games as usual. 'rat race' provided us with lots of fun and laughter as usual, and in the end, jean was the indisputable champion. mel came along after that and we taught her how the game was played, though she had to leave immediately after that. one interesting thing was her comment that i was 'high'. haha, admittedly, i was slightly off the rockets.. but i would say that's my 'normal' state. in class, i guess i'm in 'subdued' state most of the time since i can't find people of the same wavelength to talk to yet.. lolz x.X

anyway, after a while, dex jean and i started talking about more interesting stuff.. like names we would prefer to give our future children.. girls and guys.. our og and what we feel about it.. among other matters. lol, jean prefers 'alexandra' and 'alexander' whereas dex prefers 'michael'. can't rmb the other names. haha, for me, somehow names beginning with 'c' appeal more to me - 'clarissa', 'charmaine', etc.. for girls i mean. guys' names haven't really been thought of yet.

then we talked about school, og, classes and.. and the og talk was quite interesting, since all of us are from l'egolas. to keep it short, while disappointment was expressed at the size of the remaining active og members (it's sort of like 4?), we are glad to have met one another. i guess that's why spending time talking to friends and get to know each other better instead of rushing home to mug is so much more fulfilling ya? haha, contrary to popular belief, it's worthwhile 'stoning' and chatting away sometimes =D and i think the bonds we forged during this period will go a long, long way..

and then relationship issues were raised. one of the questions posed to me was, 'eh when do you intend to get a girlfriend?' ><

haha personally, i dun really have a fixed time period or anything.. for me, it's more like waiting for the 'right' time for the 'right' person. yup.. and what's 'right' o0? hmmm.. i guess it's when the other person and i have reached a stage where we're really comfortable with one another, and ya, like one another? lol, perhaps i'll be able to find her in this 2 yrs, perhaps not. maybe fate plays a more important role than most of us would like to believe.

now, i'm back at home typing this post, feeling extremely, extremely tired. and i still have lots of work to complete and responsibilities to fulfill. oh well.. maybe i should risk the banana+coffee ownage combo again =X lol.

tireddd

lotsssssss of work! zZz.. i think i'm slacking too much. have been playing lots of games recently.. think i gotta start uninstalling fm07 and winning eleven soon. lol, i'm like super behind in physics man.. haven't started on dynamics tutorial. crap. gotta hardcore it tonight!

haha, today's rather eventful. got back both hist essays at one go =X after sch, held a meeting with the remaining ventures. discussed the future structure of 02 along with campfire. zZz... realised there's a lot of work to be done, esp for campfire. but with the support of the ventures, i think we got enough engine to pull us through.

heard that willie's pulling out of ventures... disappointing =S oh well, guess he is placing his other commitments in higher priorities. after the meeting, went back home with funx, discussing lots of interesting stuff on the bus. haha, it's always fun crapping about '12345' and the likes of it.

oh yea, may multi-blog with hu ching soon. lol, watch out for it! it's gonna be funnnnn! kk, really can't think of anymore stuff to write le. cya!

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sometimes... i feel like i have been disillusioned, holding on naively to a faith and belief that will ultimately prove to be futile. i swear that i've tried my best - but is my best enough? it's as if everyone else doesn't care... and that the identity is just something temporary and unimportant.. something non-existent. i don't know... should i continue trying?
today! was looking forward to meeting my new classmates and school! 3 departed from 5A to join the ranks of other classes... and 3 others have arrived to replace them. still dunno much about the newcomers other than nigel, and i miss those who have left!

lessons resume and school goes on. class was largely.. the same i guess. only thing was that we received econs essay today and i PASSED! haha, was really happy and it was quite unexpected. i thought the last question would have killed me or something. other than that, nothing exciting or worth looking forward to yet. zZz.. it's like the class just chose to disperse and scatter right after the last lesson. ouch ><

oh well, felt so bored that i went looking for my trustworthy and fun og mates. called up raj and we joined jean and brian. got introduced to raj's classmates - augustine (spellcheck?), clara and nick leong. lol, clara was arguing with augustine over whether their respective names are good. yea, something alone these lines. x.X

4 of us went to library to try to study. i think jean's really stressed up.. she's been working so hard these days. jean, if u see this, relax and stay cool! studies are important, but dun let them trouble you too much =) lol, we ended up talking crap instead (something which always happen whenever i go to library -.-). haha, had a fun time just laming around and wasting time. after a while, we had decided to go back to lodge.

met jean's friend, melissa wee, on the way and she joined us too. haha, today seems to be a day of making new friends ya? we ended up playing 'asshole dai di' and as usual i always assume the role of royalty.. and was king thrice in a row! =P lolz, got bored of it and started playing other card games.

somewhere along the way, we met rachel, siti and wei yuan, who were all going to recre. gym with melissa and jean. crap crap crap.. and yea.. nothing really eventful actually. but nevertheless, fun! ;)

yea.. dunno, got lots of work to finish by tonight.. and i gotta rest early too. been sleeping late recently. not in the mood to illuminate this post.. so yupp all you got are words.. words.. and more words!

coffee+banana

wheeeeee! i've finally completed econs half an hour ago! lol, to people out there having trouble keeping awake, you might want to try out the all-powerful and effective combination of coffee and bananas! it's like, i took 1h + on my first essay even though i told myself to keep to the time limit of 45 mins.. can't really concentrate, so kept blogsurfing and doing random stuff like looking through msn contacts. then after completing my first essay, i decided to try out teh ownage combo!

nice and tasty white coffee with strong and somewhat comforting aroma, coupled with smooth and sweet bananas, took me to the 2nd round of hardcoring - qn 1b econs essay. this time it's totally different.

i quickly wrote down an outline and took to writing immediately, with the occasional drift of sweet aroma from the coffee providing ample company. lol, does coffee make the heart beat faster? 'cos i think my heart was beating fast as i sped through the essay. took about 45 mins i think =)

haha, but i gotta warn you guys. the downside to the pro-ded combo is quite bad - you'll get...

diarrhea!

lol, kk, i'm exaggerating it a bit. it wasn't quite as bad, just had a persistent tummyache for a while. oh well, at least it empowered me to complete the essay in record time. pros outweigh the cons? haha, that's up to you to decide.

hm. it's quite early now - in the morning. i think i better sleep. tomorrow promises to be a day of excitement! haha, sweet dreams...

school!

ahhhh! i can't wait for school to reopen! lol, as weird as it may sound, i think school's really interesting (apart from the homework, that is), especially this period of time. why? well.. for one, 5A will be getting new classmates tmr! haha, i've always liked meeting new people and making new friends.. so it's sort of fun and exciting to anticipate who's coming in tmr. yup, then we'll be getting our new timetable too.. with PW included! hope the new one is as good as the old one. haha, and i like doing project work with a bunch of fun and responsible people too.

there's something about rj that seems to revitalise people, or at least it does in my case. i could swear that the atmosphere is almost sentient and alive, encouraging friendships to form and bonds to crystallize, spreading the positive synergies everywhere! lol, it motivates me to make every day a meaningful one, and to derive as much joy and happiness as possible, and at the same time, sharing it with the friends around you.


i would say that comparatively, i'm much more active a person now as in ri, where everyone is constantly being buried under the multitude of homework, projects and cca, making life in school seem like a drudgery. the difference btw then and now, i feel, is that i'm making an effort to put aside time for more meaningful stuff, rather than wasting it away on games and other random stuff.

this is when i realised that in everyone lies an endless sea of potential - we can either work hard and sacrifice a little to draw upon this immense source to change our lives for the better, or let it lie dormant and enjoy the superficialities in life. the problem with the latter is that this 'sea' will slowly trickle away.. and once it's gone, it can never return.

and it's like a painter with his canvas. as a painter, only if you're daring enough to mix colours around to achieve the desired shades will your painting look nice. on the contrary, being too conservative and unadventurous will only result in an otherwise unattractive and dull painting. we are our own painters and our lives are our canvases. how the painting will turn out to be will eventually be our choice.


kk, i realised i'm getting too contemplative >< actually, this coming week is rather special to me.. 'cause i took a risk to mix a new colour in my life, and the outcome will soon be revealed. i hope i made the right choice.. but only time will tell. haha, wish me luck! =)

to conclude.. dare to try. dare to achieve. dare to be different.

l'audeamus - let us dare.

haircut!

time to get my hair cut! lol, it's been irritating me for a while... so i finally got it cut today. whoa! it feels sooooooooooo much better now.. so airy.. so cooling.. haha, dun worry though, i didn't shave bald =)

anyway, i dunno if it's just me.. but do people usually close their eyes while having a hair cut? for me, i usually keep them closed. i mean, don't you feel uncomfortable staring at yourself for more than half an hour? doesn't it somehow portray you to be an image-conscious, ego-centric narcissist if you keep on staring at yourself in the mirror? haha, that's just my view of it.. and i really dun understand how people can do it. maybe you stare at the barber or hairdresser's hands? perhaps the scissors and razors are intriguing? lol, i simply got no idea.

however, the flip side to closing your eyes while cutting your hair is that you may inadvertently fall asleep. haha, i must admit that 90% of the time, i enter a somewhat semi-conscious state of awareness that lies between awake and asleep - ok, ok, in simpler terms, i doze off ><>< lol, and i gotta rush the hols' hw now... i've sort of procrastinated since the start of hols =S with that.. ENJOY WHAT'S LEFT OF THE HOLS PEEPS! =) ciao~

a crazy class?

i've always wanted to be in a crazy class. a crazy class can reveal the crazy nick and craziness begets joy and fun! and i've always try to look on the positive side of everything.. no matter how bad the situation i'll tell myself to find areas where i can learn from and improve so that history will not repeat itself. yea, some may say actions speak louder than words and it's easier to say something than to do it.. but i've sort of succeeded in conditioning myself into this mindset through various experiences in the past, so... ya, ok i'm being random.

anyway, back to my class. i like 5A a lot. we may not be an active bunch of people, but at least the people there are real nice. i dun mind it being 'un-crazy' actually, but there seems to be a lack of enthusiasm and cohesiveness.. and that's what dampening my passion =X i find it harder and harder to effuse enthusiasm on my part.. it's as if i'm being engulfed by an overwhelming atmosphere of.. death? i find it hard to explain how it feels.. it's like the feeling of becoming languish and.. dead? somewhere along the lines of that.

i dunno. class outing. 9 people. less than 1/3 of the class? hm.. maybe it was poorly organised. maybe march hols are simply too filled up with activities. maybe.

oh well.. i just pray that time will bridge the distinct rifts present in the class and bond us together. perhaps it's too early to judge. it's after all 3 months only.. rite? lol, maybe if i can find another crazy person in the class, we can help bring the class alive! then again, everyone in the class plays an important role.. we can only make the class fun and united if we are willing to put our differences aside and give it a try. forgive and forget, and the world will be a happier place to live in. =)

looking on the bright side, at least we had some fun last night! still waiting for the photos from siti/taufiq.. lol, we did that 'acting-cute' thingy again >< and sharyn joined us - jean, fiona, long qing, siti, taufiq, li jian, funx, woonie, and i - after we had our dinner to make it 10! we played a few lame games and had a li'l fun.. took some photos.. hm.. yea. that's about it.

lol, crap. i just realised i haven't started on hw.. and school's reopening soon! zZz.. wish me luck! x.X

love is a choice... or is it?

i was just browsing through my contacts list when i saw eng how's nick: would you rather love someone who doesn't love you, or be loved by someone you don't?

it's sort of thought-provoking and i pondered over the question for a while, and realised i can't find an answer to that question. after all, love is such a mysterious entity.. it appears to exist in infinite forms, evolving in many different ways since time. of all emotions, love is the most magnificent, dangerous, and.. nebulous. it is magnificent because it has the ability to empower a mother to lift a car weighing more than a 1000kg to save her child. it allows a person to delve deep into himself to draw on previously undiscovered reserves to confront testing situations and survive.

yet, it is also inherently dangerous due to its potentially volatile nature and the difference in context it can be taken as. simply said, love can be defined in so many different ways that a madman in his demented state of mind might think that by inflicting pain upon his victims, he is actually lavishing them with love, which is, of course, soooooooooo wrong to even think about.

finally, it is nebulous for it exists in different forms and no two person can experience it in the same way. it is vague and such is its nature that nobody can apply the same formula to achieve the same result.

and that's when the question of choice comes about. love is a choice. you can decide who to love and how it is expressed. yet, sometimes, you aren't given a choice. a pair of close friends could one day have the feeling for one another, and thus marks the start of a relationship.

oh well, after coming back from class outing, i sort of lost my train of thoughts.. i guess if given a choice, i hope that the latter happens to me. it feels so... right, perhaps to have a relationship develop and progress like that. haha, but of course, i don't think i've found the one for me yet. and maybe it's too early to talk about relationships and stuff. i dunno.

to end off this post, here's an interesting article about mothers lifting 1000+ kg car -
http://www.straightdope.com/columns/060120.html

a day of fun... and horror

woke up at 7am. went to tanah merah mrt station. met up with odac associate dudes. took taxi to moe changi coast adventure centre. taxi driver dunno the place. drove us to the sailing centre or something. we walked all the way to our destination. lol, nice morning exercise.

alright, we had kayaking next. pretty dull in the morning. just played around the demarcated area. had our lunch.. and in the afternoon, it's expedition! got more fun as we started talking to one another more.. and exchanging lame jokes x.X lol.. here are some classic ones -

do you know the butter joke?
DON'T SPREAD IT! hahaha.

do you know the suspense joke?
i'll tell you later. =P

aha, and there's more but i'm too tired to list them out. anyway, on the trip there, i was the port marker.. so didn't have much opportunity to crap around. it's borrrrring to solo. however, on the way back, i got to switch positions with someone else, so i started mingling around more. that's when the lame jokes thingy started. got to know rachael, shiya and siti more during the trip. with siti, we traded stories of our past ccas - odac and scouts. lol, rg odac girls are really good... the 4 of them who went today - olivia, rachael, shiya and siti - are all at least 2 stars kayakers :O and their stamina is pro! with the rest, it sort of became a trading centre for lame jokes =X lol.

k, then the whole thing ended at arnd 5.. but we had to walk all the way to the nearest bus stop, which was at least 2km away i think. took bus 36 and reached town only 30 mins late for og dinner =D

lol, dinner was ok.. except for the cost >.< haha, 20+ bucks for a buffet at seoul gardens is pretty crazy i guess. but it's ok.. once in a while rite? chatted about random stuff and celebrated julian's belated bdae. took some photos of brian and jean laming about.. so it's time for storytelling!

1. jean was laughing at some random stuff (as usual =P) and had hung her arm over brian. brian looked at jean with a scheming glint in his eyes.

2. he wanted to feel how it's like to compress someone's face. so he decided to make jean the test subject. x.X

3. i think i heard him say, "it's a funny feeling." lol, but when he saw everyone looking at him and his random experiment, he immediately turned sheepish. haha! jean simply continued smiling.

end of story! after that, we met mel and 3 guys eating together. whoa, scandalous ya? haha, nah. one's her fren. the other's her twin. and the last one's her long-lost cousin. or so she claims. o.0

most of the og had to return home.. curfew! leaving brian, jean and i. feeling adventurous, we decided to watch a HORROR MOVIE! lol, so we chose 'the messenger'. k la, it isn't the scariest movie i've watched before, and the plot's sort of cliché.. but it was fun. haha, spent most of the time talking crap to brian.. and he swore he will never watch a scary movie with me again, 'cause i made them funny instead of scary. k, i think i'll take that as a compliment ;)

lol, came out of the movie wondering why i paid $7.50 to scare myself. oh well, humans are weird creatures. k, went home at midnight and took a bathe. realised that i have a SUPER DISTINCTIVE TAN LINE! it's literally a line! oh man... gg. and i'm super burnt now. yea, next time you're feeling hot or something when you're around me, feel free to blame it on me =P aha, just kidding!

k, i'm burnt and exhausted from a full day of activities. can't really think straight now. cyaaaaaa!

:O got kissed by...

i had just finished my work out at the park, and i was happily drinking oak milk. this oak milk's pretty special - it's the first of its kind being drunk by me ;) lol, actually, i just saw it on display in those transparent rectangular boxes with coolers installed and thought i should give it a try. BUT TO MY HORROR, when the pretty lady at the counter scanned the tag, i realised that it costs $2.10 for it! ahhhh! haha, it's not the big container one ya? it's the tiny li'l version. oh well... scammed.. =X

back to the story... lol, so ya i was savouring the delicious and exciting new taste of oak milk (it's really quite nice, that's why it's currently one of my fav drinks) when i felt that something was AMISS.

[drama] time seemed to slow as i raised my hand to touch my cheek. my eyes widened as i felt something hot on my cheeks. i turned in trepidation towards the pool of water lying next to me and saw that... THAT...

I'VE BEEN KISSED BY A MOSQUITO!

[/drama]

k, that was pretty lame >.< just felt lame today, so i got inspired into writing this lame entry. haha, yea, just had a lame conversation with mel about lame girls and how i feel cute/pretty + talkative girls my favs >.< lol, then we crapped around for a while.. oh ya, here's some random tidbit from our convo:

oh well.. enough lameness and drama for a night i guess. can't wait for tmr! kayaking with odac associate followed by og outing! w00t! haha, full day = no time to do work = gg for procrastinator nick x.X

random thoughts

last night, as i lay on my bed, random thoughts from events and speeches over the past few days fleeted into my mind. "it feels wrong not to have a crush." this line from a friend particularly struck me. so, what's so great about crushes?

in school and without, it is easy to find people talking about their crushes and relationships - after all, most students have just entered into a co-ed environment the stark difference between the two experiences have just begun to dawn on us. crushes, infatuation, and even love, are all part of an exciting trend that can be easily coined as 'relationships'.

and this trend is rampant and widespread. its 'overwhelming effects' have led to more and more people wanting to try and get themselves involved in it. yet, unknowingly, many of these people lost a part of them when they try to soak themselves in the saturated sea of want and attention - they have willingly drowned themselves. they forgot how it was like to be carefree and happy with life, to not care about boys and girls, about what others might say about you, and simply lead life to its fullest. perhaps, words are more easily expressed as in actions, but still, it's not that difficult once you've gained acceptance - accepting the fact that life still goes on, and things will eventually work out - and a comfortable place to be yourself.

relationship issues are always complicated - there's no absolute guide to it. everyone is different in their own ways, and every step you take with your 'significant other' is a step towards learning more about the relationship. crushes are really just obsessive infatuation with a person - and there's nothing great about it. it causes you to enter into a state where you are always looking out for her (in a guy's perspective) wherever you may go, and that a smile from her could simply brighten up your day. talking to her, you may find yourself the happiest man on earth at the moment, and that nothing could be better than that.

however, when she's away, you become a shell of what you are - empty and desolate. perhaps life is not as interesting as it should be. tendrils of doubts begun to creep into your mind as you review events of the two of you together. perhaps she's interested in someone else, you may think. to keep it short, crushes and infatuation, contrary to popular belief, is more detrimental than good. how can it be good when your state of happiness is dependent on just one person all the time? how can it be nice when you can't be yourself anymore? does it really feel good to have your emotions constantly in a roller coaster mode?

well, i leave these questions to you to answer. lol, that's a lot of heavy stuff i have just written i guess. hm.. of course, i have had my crushes before. in primary school where it was a mixed school.. in secondary school when i go for external camps or overseas trips.. and in jc. however, time eventually stole them away from my mind and returned me my sense of rationality. unless something is done to address your infatuation, it will eventually die off..

personally, i think that a steadily progression in relationship from friend to close friend to intimate friend is really a much better choice than a shotgun relationship, which will most probably than not fail. haha, that's where my random train of thoughts end i guess.. so to answer my friend's question, it's really nothing wrong to not have a crush - but it's something wrong if you want to crush another person. (no puns intended) lol.

IT'S UP!

aha! after spending so much hard work, the blog is finally up! lol, first of all, i would like to thank Jeffrey Zeldman whose blog design formed the inspiration for mine!

with that, it's time to start possssssssssting! and let us now take a look back at O2!

still remember the photo scenario 'asymptote'? yup, that's our photo of it!

look! it's a bird! no, it's a plane! nah, it's...

really nothing... x.X

well.. this photo is supposed to be part of the scenario 'random'.. and we decided to meditate on the ground... yea, and we were supposed to look serious and stuff.. but somehow, jean just kept on bursting out in laughter >.< lol, and of course, she got caught on candid camera in the end and everyone had a great laugh over it. next time jean, you might want to learn the 'dao' look from me ;)

acting cute! lol, for the scenario 'camwhore', we've decided to do that 1-10 series of acting cute thingy. yea, aren't we all cute? (cute = ugly but adorable? o.0)

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, we have the posing scenario for guys! lol, feng shuo isn't actually part of l'egolas, but he had decided to join us that day, so that's why he's in the photo.

kk, i think that's enough photos and talk for now... so here goes my FIRST POST!