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the little boy and little girl were watching a movie.
"why are they holding hands?" the little boy pointed to the screen and asked.
"well, when two people are in love, they hold hands," the little girl answered.

the little boy thought about it for a while before his eyes widened, and he said,
"i held your hand in school."

the little girl laughed and replied,
"that's called friendship,"

"but how will i ever know the difference?" little boy asked, feeling confused.
the little girl giggled and said,
"you just will."

chinese new year has been relatively uneventful. the usual visitations, resting at home and playing. nothing different. but i guess the 5-day break came at a right time, what with ihc dota coming up and deadlines for history essays approaching.

my mugging momentum came to a halt last week as the competitive gaming streak kicked in. just hope once interhouse and interschool dota competitions are both over i can gain it back again.

j2 life is pretty dull. there's the usual council work to keep me occupied. in addition, once match supports and ihcs are introduced, i will barely have enough time for revision and rest. but other than that, it's mainly studies. studies studies studies. the arduous quest towards the ultimate goal for 5As.

seniors tell us that there's nothing we can do to change the situation. we need to mug for it. period. and mugging is intensely mundane. it's not boring. it can get interesting or even fun at random intervals, but these moments are few and fleeting. and so it's mundane. ritual. mechanical.

oh well... maybe i should look for mugging partners.
maybe not.

orientation blues. i think i'm slowly acclimatizing to j2 mugging life, gradually letting go of the fantasy of orientation. life goes on, it's time to stop looking back.

it's times like these that make you wonder more about your life and the destiny that awaits. there is so much more we can do, but there is also so much more we won't be doing too. in economics we learn about making choices - of how making a decision will always involve sacrifices. life's about the same. only we won't know what these sacrifices are.

so show me the northern star tonight,
and may this direction lead me to light.