the fluffy thing called...

love.

It must have been when I was young. I can't think of any other period that I could have been indoctrinated with the ideal. Perhaps it was those tales of romance I read in books and watched on television. Perhaps it was all along programemd into my genes. Perhaps it was entirely something else. In any case, for years I have believed in the much-cliched 'one true love'.

If it's meant to be, it will be. Every soul is essentially half of a greater part, and only when you find your other half will your life be complete. Everyone has a soulmate - it just takes time to find her. I have always told my friend these stuff because I believe in what I say.

Yet, the problem with waiting is, what if Life has already placed her in your life? What if the person you have been waiting for all the time is, in fact, someone you have already met? And what if... The million 'what if's that are so characteristic of our daily lives never seem to end. And with the fleeting opportunity gone never to return, the only thing you will find in its wake are the little bits of regrets that fill the crevices of your mind and surface whenever you revisit the past.

I have been told that such love is impossible to find today. Some thinks that it's not even practical! It seems like our valuation and expectation of love today is largely coloured by the overly-romanticized shows featured on television these days, and that education and the exposure to reality has come a long way in producing many cynics of such ideals.

Actually, it could be that espousing such ideals is just a cowardly way of staying in the status quo. After all, it's best not to disturb the current state of affairs lest you upset the equilibrium of friendship. Amidst all the swirling currents of feelings and emotions, where and how do you draw the line between love and friendship? Change or continuity?

And at the heart of the matter lies a word. Courage.

I think it takes strength to love.
But courage to show your love.

P.S. Alright, this is to preempt people from asking me questions like with whom I am in love with and whatnots, because the truth is I am not (: These are just musings over this fluffy thing called love.