Nice song! haha it's currently stuck in my head till I get sick of it from listening to it too much.

Anyway, today's another wasteful day where reality collided with virtual reality. I almost feel guilty from all this sloth. Almost. That's why I haven't stopped yet I guess. Never mind, to make up for it, I shall be making my way to the school's library to start on those dreaded essays for uni apps, else they will never get completed.

Sigh, but with the conclusion of As, there won't ever be the Coks and extended family lingering around council room anymore! That means it's gonna be extremely boring working in school. Damz. I need to find a new study group, so kindred spirits please tell me if you're interested k! :D

Alright, so that's the plan for next week. Finally, some purpose in life. I been isolating myself at home, avoiding from all the troubles and responsibilities that accompanies post-As for far too long. Time to get out for some fresh air and maybe start cementing friendships.

Hmm. Was reading Ye Wei's entry about post-prom and I agree that "it's so flabbergasting how easy this seperation was". I think it's still easy for us to pretend that we'll all keep in touch for a long time to come now while we are still together now, with many opportunities to meet up. But the truth is that once we step foot on the new roads that awaits us (guys with NS, girls with jobs/unis), we are also stepping on a pedal that accelerates us away from one another.

In time, when the only connections we have are far-flung and distant, we may find ourselves staring at the contacts of friends on lists such as that of handphones and MSN in mute inaction. Perhaps there is nothing much to talk about after the cliched and obligatory exchanges of how life has been have been done, and the conversation dwindles off before finally coming to an emphatic halt, characteristic of the fullstop we are so oft to use at the end of sentences. And then, we realize how little we know of that person and wonder how things can start off so beautiful only to end up so disappointing.

What a scary scenario. But we can still change that. We still have the time to do so, the time to create opportunities, the time to make changes. Throw away the baggages of anxiety, worries and fears and embrace the change that your heart is telling you to enact, but your mind is stopping you from.

Think, what will the 25-year-old you tell yourself to do? Be passive and carry a heavy weight called Regret over your heart for years to come? Or to do something and be disappointed, but free yourself from haunted thoughts of 'what-if's?

We have a choice. To do something that may make a difference, or to walk away and wait for a difference.

Which will you choose?

Which will I choose?