A congregation of thoughts

It's hard to keep resolutions because it's easy to break them. Rationalization is a powerful tool that we are oft to employ in great doses, overwhelming any previous inclinations through seemingly-reasonable excuses. And so I find myself here, breaking one of my resolutions for the coming 8 days as I seek to reward myself after a hard day at work.

Alright, the bad thing about work is the all-so-tangible office politics. Let us discount those insidious and often unseen stuff that may be going on in the background and, instead, talk about hardwired attitudes that irritate. Efficiency is a premium trait, but it is often undermined by the superficial. After all, working, or, rather, the act of being busy, has favourable connotations attached to it and makes a person appear to be hardworking. It looks good on the surface.

However, what if you can finish everything under your jobscope fast and efficiently? Do you not have the prerogative to delve into areas of personal interest? As much as the work-life balance is encouraged, the office seems to have no place for the equilibrium to be established. Due to certain conditioned mindsets, people tend to work along these treacherous fault lines, either to abuse it or to avoid getting abused. Hence, people become less caring of what they actually do than what they are perceived as doing. As much as I wish it would be different, it is often hard to bend reality to our ideals (especially if we are low-ranking and young NSF), and such societal mores are highly-resistent towards change anyway.

Next, the thing about friendships between guys and girls is that as close as a guy may be to a girl, the only way for these great friends to reach the level of almost-best-friend is to have both parties affirm each other about their lack of romantic interests towards the other party. Otherwise, there will always be the underlying sexual tension and whatnots wrecking havoc on the platonic relation.

Finally, we tend to confuse needs and wants. Our goals and pursuits often fall somewhere along the line separating the two. Getting what we want makes us truly happy - but getting what we need makes us truly satisfied.

The fog has lifted. The uncertainty that was is no longer. Where there used to be a destination in mind, the vision in the mindscape has gradually faded. Perhaps the distance to the location has been too discouraging, or perhaps its just a spell of fleeting fickleness that accompanies contemporary concerns, such as the bumpy road you are navigating through right now. You aren't really clear about much these days. As for now, you are content to be an aimless wanderer, taking yourself to wherever your heart tells you to go.

A congregation of people.