Undefined.

Ok, looks like it's impossible to keep away from the computer. Better establish a limit instead. Anyway, I got terribly sick of my old blogskin, so I decided to borrow one from someone else for the time being. I never liked using someone else's blog templates and I usually make my own, but due to the chaos that has taken control over my life, I can't afford to spend time on designing now ><

So this blog shall temporarily be known as 'Undefined' as a tribute to the problem with the blog template that permanently embeds the 'undefined' text beside each headings. Perhaps more significantly is how the temporary name bears resonance to my life right now, where everything seems to be uncertain and vague.

Thoughts wrestle for attention in my mind, branching out in all directions from religion to responsibility, and from life to love. I feel that there is a supernatural being, frequently known as 'God', governing the universe, but it is not the God that the various religions worship. Being the eldest bestows great privileges, but it also extracts much freedom from decisions as we are burdened by the awareness of how every action potentially leaves behind deep footprints on the consciousness of our siblings. Life is quite good for me right now, but SATs is seriously proving to be the bane of my existence. And love is a Pandora's Box that I have no desire to open what with troubling exams crowding out everything else.

Perhaps it might be easier to voice these concerns out to a friend since speaking is faster than type-writing, but NS has taken away most of my listening ears =( haha and I have yet to find a 'da jie' in my workplace! Oh well, it's just 1 more week before I can unveil my exciting plans. I just have to wait.