little moments

nothing eventful in school today. just that lunch with mel and zixin had us revisiting the issue of class identity, of a class to belong in. 5A is definitely an interesting class to be in, but we are less of a class than a group of many unique individuals. in fact, for most of us, we simply conform to the frivolous identity thrust upon us at the start of last year and leave it to remain hollow and empty, attaching little significance to a name which could mean so much more. we band together in little cliques and prefer the security and comfort they can provide, never venturing forth from these safety nets into a more uncertain, more unpredictable, but definitely more rewarding, zone that would encompass the class as a whole. haha i dunno, i'm quite comfortable with my classmates and many of them are fun to be with. but it just strikes me that when i look at 5A, i don't really see a class - i just see many different individuals congregating for a common cause, namely the a levels.

oh well. it's already the j2 year and there's not much anyone can do abt anything. my idealistic vision of a close-knit class has long faded into oblivion when i recognised the futility of using material articles such as the class blog and group activities to provide ourselves with a shared and common platform. and along with it, the flickering tongues of passion have been left to lick at the cold and biting air, slowly diminishing in the fading backdrop of a cloudless night.

mmm haiya but this is already the last year of jc life. i don't want to leave jc not remembering much of 5A when i know there's so much potential lying dormant under the passive surface, just waiting to be tapped into. ok i shall try to hardcore class again. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

funx and i talked a li'l about life in jc today, about how life is 'dam tough', amongst other stuff. sometimes, awareness creeps up on us and strike us when we are most vulnerable, leaving us reeling from the assault, confused and uncertain. flaws exposed, weaknesses accentuated, shame and self-consciousness anesthetize our senses.

but i think we shld really lead our jc lives remembering how short and fleeting it actually is. remember, that every second you are living now is a moment to be recalled and recounted. and these moments, you can choose to make them beautiful, creating memories you'll always want to relive; or you can choose to mess it up, leaving behind an irretrievable past that is filled with regrets and remorse.

that's the main reason why i want to give my all, my everything, in jc - because once the two precious years have elapsed, we will never have the opportunity to do the things we want, ever again.

and so i guess, in life, it is the many little moments of happiness we share that blur away the pain and hardship that comes along the our way.

fair trade?

i would say...
definitely!
=)